Think i got a problem with food but pyciatrists dont seem to understand me?

No, not normal and you know it. It's perfectly ok to not eat meat. What you are eating are all good foods so you are well ahead of most anorexics. If you want to look forward to a life of heart issues, keep it up. As your weight goes down you lose muscle mass. Your heart is a muscle. Get it? You are not invincible and it will take a toll on your health. It's up to you. No one is going to shove food down your throat. Don't be an idiot.